Guilty Mommy


So it happened, the thing all parents fear.. she fell.

My daughter fell. From a pretty high height. She fell off of her diaper changing table.

On my watch.

She cried. I cried (harder than her). She bruised and healed, and I still felt the guilt of her falling and hurting herself.

I am her mom. Her mother. I gave her life. And I watched her fall and get hurt.

Now, this was a few weeks ago but I am still reminded of what happened daily when I change her clothes or change her diaper. So, to combat this reminder, and to reduce the potential fall factor, I started changing her on the floor. Can’t fall from there.

My 11-month-old wiggle worm cannot stay still. Not even to get a diaper change. So even though the floor is now a huge changing mat, it is still a struggle to get her changed or dressed.

Today I was tired, today I was achy and not in the mood to wrestle a diaper onto a crying baby who just wanted to move.

So I took off the dirty diaper, wiped the baby bubble butt and let her go. Onesie undone and one sock on, she crawled around her room, onto her toys and finally focused on playing with her rocking chair.

She’s laughing as I’m watching this miracle of life play and have fun in front of me. I am in awe of how much she has grown and her personality. And even though I’m tired, I wouldn’t change anything for the world. So I grabbed her to blow raspberries on her belly and join in on the fun.

When I snagged her I noticed her thighs were a little wet. “You better not have peed,” I told her. Nah, she couldn’t have peed, I’ve been watching her – must be from the wipes.

Mind you, when I put her down her cheetah-print hooded head was rolling all over the floor near her rocking chair.

I put her diaper on, while snapping her onesie it feels damp. “You seriously better not have peed.”

Concerned, I look for a wet spot on the carpeted floor, no spot. I inch closer to the chair and sniff and rub the carpet.. feels a little wet. Smells a little like pee.

Oh man.

I look at my little girl and give her a defeated look and pull her in for a hug. I wrap my hands around her and brush against her hood. Her sweatshirt up to her hood is completely soaked.

Oh boy.

I quickly undress her and stand up to put her on the changing table away from the urine soaked carpet and I notice the wet stains on the knees of my brand new leggings.

Oh brother.

I stealthy change her all without one peep or wiggle from my maniac mover. I look down at my newly clothed baby who is smiling up at me and her eyes are sparkling with joy. That’s when I realize she’s up on the changing table and I was ok, and more importantly, so was she!

It still amazes me that I am responsible for this little life. She is mine and I am hers. There comes a point as parents when we have to let go of the guilt we carry and be in the present with our babies.
For me, that was the whole pee-on-the-floor thing.

You’re not alone moms and dads, babies cry, parents cry. Then life goes on, faster than most of us ever imagined. So be in the present, learn from the past and look forward to the many more adventures in the future.

Cheers.

20- Minute Spinach and Tomato Pasta with Chicken

I can be extremely indecisive. Like stare-at-two-things-for-20-minutes-without-picking-anything indecisive.

Especially when it comes to food.

Have you see the meme with Noah from the Notebook about girls picking food? Yeah, that’s me.

I’m usually hungry and Pintrest until my stomach is about to eat itself, then pick something and think it’s too hard so then I end up eating cereal.

Well, cereal for dinner days are over since Charlie is starting to eat real food and solid meals.

That’s when I came across this masterpiece – Spinach, Tomato Pasta with Chicken. DELICIOUS!!

Holy tasty!

I found it after work, went to the store, cooked it and was eating all within an hour. EVEN BETTER! It also makes a BUNCH of food which is great because I tend to cook on Mondays and eat leftovers until I lick all the Pyrex containers clean.

I am a spinach fanatic so my recipe has almost double the amount the original recipe called for.

I also wish I shredded the rotisserie chicken before I started making the sauce, I think everything would have gone smoother.

But regardless, my mistakes are your gains! Now it will be even easier for you!

The sauce is a thick, creamy goodness and gives you your fill of carbs with fresh spinach and tomatoes.

I used canned diced tomatoes (drained), but you can always chop up some fresh ones if you would like the tomatoes to have a stronger structure.

Quick and easy dinner with lots of leftovers!

Spinach and Tomato Pasta with Chicken

Serves 6
Prep time 10 minutes
Cook time 20 minutes
Total time 30 minutes
Meal type Main Dish
Misc Child Friendly, Freezable, Serve Hot
Occasion Casual Party
Website Gal on a Mission
Spinach, tomatoes, chicken - OH MY! This quick and easy dinner will be sure to please your family and your taste buds!

Ingredients

  • 2 tablespoons Olive Oil
  • 4 cloves Garlic (Minced)
  • 3 cups Spinach
  • 1 tablespoon Minced Onion
  • 1 teaspoon Oregano (Dried)
  • 1/4 teaspoon Thyme (Dried)
  • 1/2 teaspoon Basil (Dried)
  • 2 cans Diced Tomatoes (Drained)
  • 2 cups Chicken Stock
  • 2 cups Shredded Chicken
  • 1/2 cup Half & Half
  • 3 tablespoons Flour
  • 16oz Box of Pasta (Penne or Ziti Recommended)
  • Parmesan Cheese (To Top)
  • Salt and Pepper (To Taste)

Note

Using rotisserie chicken cuts down even more time and is easy and delicious!

Directions

Saute
Step 1
In olive oil, saute garlic, minced onion and spinach in dutch oven. Simmer over medium heat.
Pasta
Step 2
Boil water for pasta. Cook per package directions.
Boil
Step 3
Add basil, oregano, thyme, salt and pepper to dutch oven. Add drained tomatoes and chicken stock. Stir to combine. Bring to boil and stir.
Add
Step 4
Add chicken to sauce, stir.
Whisk
Step 5
In small boil, whisk together half & half and flour until smooth.
Stir
Step 6
Stir in flour mix into sauce. Mix thoroughly until sauce is light pink/orange color. Let sauce simmer until pasta is al dente.
Add
Step 7
Drain pasta and add to sauce. Mix.
Step 8
Top with parmesan cheese, more tomatoes and/or more spices. Enjoy!